When you didn’t think your soul needed nourishment but then you find that your spirit is lifted so much so that you start to get butterflies in your stomach. It’s like love at first sight. Like when you see something unexpected and it moves you. It moves you so far away from your own world that you’ve traveled the universe becoming, smarter, stronger, braver. I feel that way right now because of you all, my handful of followers. I don’t know that I can ever get to the complexity of Intertextuality but I’ve finished chapter 10. It was easier than I thought but tougher than expected. It might be a bit of a controversial chapter because it’s very physical. I found that I had to change some vocabulary while still maintaining the intensity of the happenings between the two young lovers. I hope I did a good job. I’m sure you will all let me know. You might all just laugh and say… What was she talking about? Controversial? Nah! Oh well. We shall see in a few weeks.
Thank you all for following… reading this minutia of thoughts. I never thought I’d find such wonderful insight, such poetry. You are all very talented and I am humbled that you would take an interest in what I have to say. Honestly, I never thought I had this much to say but I guess I do. I want to thank you all, my handful of followers, because you are helping me through this wonderful journey. I visit your pages and I fall in love. I’m transported from my world for a while, a welcomed distraction. I’m glad for it. It’s refreshing and I’m able to come back to my project renewed, ready.
I’m in love with blogging. Working on this project has become more pleasurable, less stressful because of it. I’m able to put my thoughts out there and my brain is less cluttered. I didn’t think it would matter so much to me but I’m finding that it does. It matters a lot, this blog. M.A.T.L. was supposed to be a summer read but now it’s turning out to be a late summer read. I’m hoping to submit it to Amazon by mid to late July. I think I can do it. The last chapters with the exception of chapter 13 are fairly easy, done. Chapter 13 begs to be shorter but I’m not sure I can do it. I’ll cross that bridge when I get there. Chapter 11 is easy because it’s cut and dry. Chapter 12 ties up lose-ends and I don’t have that many changes there. The final chapter is done but I might need to change some explicit vocabulary. I was passionately typing that chapter because the thoughts were so severe that I just blurted out whatever my characters wanted to say. I was just following along. My characters seem to control me at times. I lose all my power and they just kind of do their thing. That and… you know, when the very last page is so close you want to just feel that gratification as soon as possible. You type anxiously until your fingers cramp up and your heart pops out of your chest. Closure. It feels good.
Hmm… the last page. I work with outlines. The fiction pops into my head and I know the beginning, middle and end right away. I make an outline and then flesh it out. The flesh is so much fun for me. I do enjoy breathing life into my stories that way. I also journal a lot. I carry note pads wherever I go. It is very therapeutic. I have twelve projects all together that I could be working on if I didn’t have a full-time job. Maybe that will change in the future. But for now… I knew M.A.T.L. was going to be 14 chapters when I first started. It was easy for me because I knew the family of characters intimately by the time I came up with the story line. It was vivid in my head. It was fun. And when you’re a Mom, wife and hold a full-time job, fun takes on a whole new meaning. In a way, M.A.T.L. is saving me. This is not only my journey to becoming an author or a dream come true but ultimately, it’s a journey to finding my true self.
M.A.T.L. is closer to fruition thanks to you all.