I thought about it all day as I re-read part of my novel. I like it. There is no doubt that the feeling of something mysterious, a feeling of overwhelming excitement for that moment, that person, is very powerful. It can blind you and then trample you. But the process feels so good, that it doesn’t matter. That moment, with that person, is worth it. Who cares if after you get derailed, wrecked! Romance is that roller coaster ride that has hidden turns and drops you never expected. Your belly in knots. I like that ride a great deal. I like writing my characters in situations they have no control over. They’re lost in the moment. I feel their enjoyment, their nervousness. So powerful.
Romance. It’s a lovely mood. Mood. Yes. It’s the mood you’re in when you want to kiss someone. It tickles your insides, growing like wildflowers all over a hilly meadow. Different colors and textures coursing inside your body. It’s inevitable you’re going to fall given such a mood. You’ll fall hard and love the minute you hit the ground. You’ll love the pain. It’s normal. You’re alive! Romance, thrusts you in without warning. It beats the crap out of you. You and the ache you feel all over smile, laugh, madness in the tenderness of it all. Yes! You’re alive!
Can you imagine being locked in a darkness that does not allow you to feel romance? Even if you don’t experience it every day, it is there. It’s how you wake up, how you carry yourself and how you speak to others. The world is full of this. A glance, a smile a touch. It’s there when you care for someone, when you speak your mind, when you scream. The night, the day, the sun, the moonlight, it’s there. Romance, there can be no darkness in it’s light.
For me the ride is all about the eyes. They can say so much without you uttering a single word. The mood is instant, the feeling is intense. It doesn’t have to be love precisely but an emotion that takes you over for a moment. The eyes have it. I see it in my daughters when they talk about their Legos or when their eyes light up as they describe an event at school. I see it in my husband’s eyes when he thanks me for a meal and kisses my hand.
I’m not living a whirlwind romance that is transporting me beyond my bedroom door, but I am living a life where romance is a powerful force, not just in love but in the details of daily life evoking moods in me that make me smile. With the eyes, with the heart, with my soul. Romance is in the air every day I wake up and every day I close my eyes to sleep. This might not make any sense but I felt it and therefore, had to let it out.
As for the song that can evoke romance, I’ve been in a Latina mood all weekend actually, so let’s seal it that way. The song Despacito has been translated into many languages and has taken over dance floors and radio stations all over the world. I’m so proud to be Latina with such a song having taken the world by storm. I love its contagious beat, its intoxicating romanticism. It’s a very sexy, romantic tune. The lyrics really make love to me and that does transport me somewhere else. (The stories I could tell you. Oh wait… I will.) I really don’t need a perfect atmosphere or reason to listen to it. It’s maybe been my go to song when I want to write a love scene or just to make me feel good. I like the original song by Luis Fonsi and the video is so fun and sexy. I’d like to think I’m that way. Why not? I do so love romance!
Hope you’re having a good weekend. Thanks so much for reading Day 11.