100 DoRaM: Day 50 – Technical Difficulties

Hi y’all.  There’s been a lot going on and the lack of internet connectity seems to have krept up like a pest but I managed to get my phone and I will post an excerpt from SKoH that I had saved on my phone. I’m so tired right now.  And I’m upset.  I’m overwhelmed and… nothing else to say…

No embedded video… or I don’t know.  Please listen for full effect.  I love Sleeping at Last and this song means a lot to me.  It’s called Heart.  It matches this scene perfectly. I think. Okay!  Gotta go or I’ll get caught!  Miss y’all!

“I’m going to go get some coffee and wash up. You got this. Right Joseph?”

“Yes. I’m not going anywhere.”

“Good. I love you darling. Be right back in a few minutes.”

She tells me so nicely squeezing my hand. I love her so much for being so open and loving. I’m so lucky. Joseph turns towards me leaning a little. He takes my hand and caresses it gently. It’s like I’m fragile and he’s taking every precaution.

“You need anything? More ice?”

I shake my head no and I keep staring at his beautiful face. I can’t eat anything until tomorrow but I don’t feel hungry. I’m so happy to have Joseph near me. His presence consumes me and I can think of nothing else. He kisses my hand and stares back at me with such a smile.

“You look really lovely. I love watching you sleep you know. You look very peaceful and angelic. I miss those days when I could be close to you like this. I miss us together like when we used to cuddle.”

I squeeze his hand in agreement. His words make me sigh and I close my eyes remembering the lovely act of cuddling with him. This love is so intense. How can I survive it? How can I live without it? Something has changed between us… or rather beginning to change. I feel it. It’s strong and I don’t want it to end. He leans closer and I manage to caress him gently on the left side of his cheek. He closes his eyes and he… I wish he would kiss me. It’s a nice dream. He kisses my forehead and sits back down leaning his chin on his hands and just stares. It’s a loving gaze casting a power so profound that I feel stars tickling me.

“I’m so grateful to God that you’re okay. It would end me if something ever happened to you. I love you sweet Matl.”

I’m so moved by his words. I take his right hand as it’s clasped in mine and kiss it. He smiles. I clear my throat.

“I love you too.”

I whisper. It’s enough to kill me inside… this deep, intense feeling of a rare moment where love stops time and you feel you could just… burst! That’s how I feel right now. Like bursting. I love him so much.

Some Kind of Heaven – from Chapter 4

©2017 Mel Gutiér

9 thoughts on “100 DoRaM: Day 50 – Technical Difficulties

  1. Agapi. I just wanted to say I miss you and love you very much and think of you. I’m well. So much better. Taking care of myself. I need to still sort my life out. Thank you for being my friend. Sorry I left you in haste. You are wonderful and I miss you. We’ll talk when life permits. Embracing you

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