100 DoRaM: Day 52 – I love Charlie

(Charlie… gasp)

“Mr… Charlie.”

“You are something else. She created you perfectly. Wow! Where is she?”

“Somewhere safe. You can’t see her, can you?”

“I can… just… that gun is very distracting. I kind of value my life even if it is fictional.”

“Right. You are what she says you are.”

“I am… wow those gorgeous eyes… you miss your man, do you?”

“How do you…”

“I know stuff. I know what she knows.”

“How? Why and how does she do this? Tell me or I’ll fucking blow your brains out!”

“Okay… first, put the gun down and we can talk. That’s it. Just put it away, nice and slow.”

“What are you exactly?”

Good question. She’s fucking gorgeous but for some reason… no boner. As sexy as she is… damn Mel!

“Speak up!”

“I’m gathering my thoughts. Just hold on. I kind of want to see Mel. If I see her it’ll help me.”

“I might consider it.”

“Oh… man! You know Mel’s putting those words in your mouth? She’s writing you now. From her head. There’s no secret to this. I don’t know how this is… I want to see her now. You can kill me… I’m hoping she’ll write me back in somehow. But I’m kind of hoping you won’t shoot. I mean… it would be pretty messy around here. This place is… it’s your chaos, isn’t it?”

“Yes. She made me do it. How did you find your way here?”

“It’s her. I think about her and I can do anything. Like you. She… holy shit! You guys had something way back when… Oh God! The imagery…”

Mel, you are something else girl! You had an affair with Phoenix. I wish I would have been there. I would breathe sigh, but I can’t breathe.

“What’s going on! I can’t hear you when you think!”

“Of course not. We’re characterizations. We can only hear her, not each other. Well… unless she wants, I guess. Yeah… that makes sense. What do you want Phoenix Padilla?”

“Wait… we can’t hear each other’s thoughts, but you can…”

“I seem to be able to do stuff others can’t. So why are you doing all this? What did she do to you?”

“She gave me a man… but you should know. Why don’t you know?”

Shit… I don’t know what the fuck’s up with this goddess. I don’t. This was before my time.

As tough as she is, she’s like a child. Alright… Mel?


“Phoenix… bring her out. I need to see her. I’ll help you get what you need but you need to let her go. I’ll do anything you ask. I just need her. I need her. You get that. Just like you need… him.”

Mel… you’re such a romantic. That’s it. Isn’t it? Love. You love me! You love me and… so you allow me to be. You just can’t admit it. That’s it! I did it! No… it’s too easy.


“Hey… now you don’t have to get so grabby there, Phoenix!”

“You seem not to understand what is at stake. I’m about to demonstrate. I’m about to blow her brains out in front of you.”

“No! You’re not. Listen… I’m not entirely sure what is going on around here. This started when she started to blog. I don’t know but I wanted to come out. I asked her if I could come out and she let me. Then all of a sudden… go figure. I found myself thinking about her and then boom! I could travel anywhere, do anything.”


“She loves you more than she does me.”

“Oh… now Phoenix. I don’t think so. I think the reason you came out… the wall breaking was… is because she loves you too. She doesn’t mean it. You know… to hurt us. Her head is a wonderous place. It’s… like… a… dream. There it is. She’s the dreamer of dreams and desires. They manifest themselves in her writing… her characterizations. You. You’re one of her dreams. A beautiful dream you are Phoenix. Just look at you!”

She’s buying it. I hope. But maybe I’m right. This is Mel’s beautiful dream. It’s her music. Her drug. We’re just here for the ride.



“Don’t cry darling. I’ve got you girl. I’ve got you.”

“I was so scared! Phoenix…”

“You… love him more than me but you love me enough to set me free… I don’t know how to get back.”

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to take you away from him. You belong together. I’ll…”

“Mel! Watch out!”




(She shot him… My Charlie!)

“Mel… I’m bleeding. I’m really bleeding… like a real live person.”

“Charlie… I’m so sorry. Phoenix!”

“Take me back. I don’t care for this madness… I’d rather die.”

“No! Give me that!”

“I miss my Angel.”

“I do love you. I love you so much. You represent to me something I can’t ever be. It’s a deep desire to do and be something extraordinary… That’s you Phoenix. You’re extraordinary and one day everyone will know your story.”

“Umm… bleeding characterization here.”

“Charlie… you’re fine. Get up.”

“Oh… no more blood. Nice. Okay… looks like our Mel is back. Enough fun I guess.”

(What the hell is wrong with me! Phoenix…)


“You love him. Something is keeping you from him. Like… me. I didn’t believe in you. I love you… I believe in you now. I do love you Phoenix. If I hurt you… I’m sorry. Forgive me.”

“You wrote him so perfectly for me. I didn’t expect it. I was fine and you…”

“Oh Phoenix! I’m sorry. I’m messing everyone up! Charlie…”

“Come here… Don’t cry Mel. You can’t help loving love so much. You fall deeply in love with us and the story lines… I get you now. I’ve got you my darling Mel.”

“What about Phoenix?”

“I’m stuck here… aren’t I?”

“Work with me the both of you. I have a bright idea. I think you should kiss.”


“Mel, work with me. You love her. Maybe a kiss will send her back. Look at her. She’s willing. See.”

“No. You’re crazy.”

(I’m so crazy!)

“I like the idea Mel. I’d like to kiss you.”

“See? What did I tell you… like the Wizard of Oz and Dorothy’s ruby slippers. Your kiss will send her back to Kansas. Well… you know what I mean.”

(I need a new brain. Hey!)

“Yes! Wow… what a kiss! Phoenix… I think… I’m… a… fan. Breathe sigh. Ha! You okay Mel?”


“Nothing’s happening. I’m still here. And… I haven’t seen the guys.”

“They’re back. I don’t know how they got back. I’m sorry it didn’t work Phoenix. I… Charlie?”

“Don’t hate me. Okay? I knew it wouldn’t work. I didn’t think you’d fall for it. I thought… I just kind of wanted to see you two kiss. Boy! Completely worth it!”


“Well… it was quite delicious between the two of you.”

(Charlie… really?)

“Sorry… okay… Here’s what I know from this beautiful brain that is the Mel. Dreaming is her favorite form of transport. I suppose she’s a big dreamer. I mean… look at us. She dreamt us up beautifully. No holds barred. So, you need to go to sleep Phoenix. Dream. It’s the only way.”


“Yes! Phoenix… sleep. Sleep my love. Catch her Charlie!”

“Wow! That was fast.”

“She really wanted to go back.”

“She’s like an angel. You made her perfect.”

“Yeah… I did.”

“I got to hand it to you. Your love is amazing… your dreams… incredible.”

“Oh! She’s gone.”

(My head is amazing… remarkable.)

“Well… what do you do know. Must have been some sweet dream. And you’re the remarkable one sweetheart.”



“I owe you an apology.”

“If you must.”

“I’m sorry for your story line.”

“I’m not.”

“You’re not?”

“Nope… I get you now. I get that you want me to be with that Rachel gal.”

“You do?”

“Yes… you look like her. You’re her. I just now figured it out.”

“Come on! She’s got green eyes and…”

“And… that’s it. Her characterization… it’s you. A version of you anyway… God forbid you should truly fall in love with me, one of your characters. You wrote someone like you in. I’m on to you now. Just so you know… your little dream trick…”


“It didn’t really work on me. I was well aware something was off.”

“Oh Charlie! I’m so glad!”

“Are you?”


“You do love me.”

“I kind of do.”

“But… there’s no chance…”

“Don’t take this the wrong way… I believe in you but… you’re not real.”

“Right… wait.  No!”


“That’s the song for this? Wait… no you didn’t!”

“What? I love this song.”

“You… you’re such a… I look like the guy from Sixteen Candles. I’m Jake… you’re… you’re Sam! Jesus! I can’t believe I didn’t get that form the get go!”

(What can I say. It was kind of a thing for me. You’re my Jake. I dreamt you up for me.)

“But… you don’t love me that way.”

“Tonight, I do. You came to my rescue just like Jake did Sam.”

“Oh… okay… Kiss?”

“Yes please!”


© 2017 Mel Gutiér

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32 thoughts on “100 DoRaM: Day 52 – I love Charlie

  1. Heavens where to start. Ive read it a few times a week apart. Made me reread some other stuff too because it took more reading because you seemed to be saying so so much which i needed to put together with other pieces. . There’s this sub text in your work im always trying to figure out too because your work is so personal, as much about u as your characters at times.

    Then i thought actually, maybe there isn’t because there’s a lit of confession in there.

    Then i just stopped over thinking and enjoyed it 🙂

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  2. I wanna see you and Phoenix kiss too. 😉
    I love your love, and your mind. We’re all characters in someone else’s head. I love being in your head. This was so romantic and hot! And Charlie is real to you, right?

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    1. Lol! In a way… yes. He’s real to me. I can almost taste him. But recently my need for him has been decreased a bit… I still ship him though! With Rachel of course. 😏

      I think you would love Phoenix… 😜

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  3. Well I read it all Mel, It’s crazy you know, your all crazy you know, the whole lot of us are all crazy you know, I’m reading this crazy stuff, that means I’m crazy too you know, so can you shack me up with phoenix, she seems a nice crazy type you know………

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