I’ve been reviewing my Joseph scenes. It struck me that they involve conflict. I didn’t intentionally set out for his scenes to have this strife in them but they do. I think my male head sees it that way. Especially this particular teen. Joseph is 17 and he wants to help those around him. He’s a bit weird and perfect in the head, obsessed with a 13 year old, loving her from far away and best friends with her brother, Marcus, also 17. He does not have a violent tendency in him but he is passionate. Marcus on the other hand… he’s going to beat the crap out of anyone who gets in his way. But… there is something about these two sort of opposites that made my brain go… hmmm…. I like the strife, the tension between the two.
Reading over these scenes is fun but awkward. Like an insight into my head and I’ve caught myself in the act. LOL (Well… I’ve always wanted to have brothers growing up.) Anyway, I feel like the male character I write is always strong, flawed to a fault making him adorable, making him passionate and strong. Is my head secretly wanting something or am I simply wanting to make the scenes entertaining? I don’t know. I always let the character dictate where he goes in his life and I really love writing the male character. Also, this story is primarily in Matl’s voice, but I couldn’t help sneak Joseph in. Lots happens on his end of things and I needed to tell his side. Reading this over… feels a little weird though. Like someone else wrote it. So much has changed in my head since.
Here’s another excerpt form Joseph’s chapter. I like this scene. Three teen boys heading to school. Angel (14) and Marcus are Matl’s brothers.
In the car, Marcus is acting funny. Weird. Normally he’s a big blabber mouth talking up a storm. What’s going on with him?
“Marcus… you okay?”
“No, he’s not. He got in trouble last night.”
Angel is too happy telling on him.
“Why? What happened?”
“Shut up Angel!”
“Marcus what happened?”
“None of your business!”
“Geeze Marcus! He’s your best friend. Just tell him.”
“Fuck you both!”
“Marcus… I’m going to stop the car and we’ll be late for practice. If you don’t tell me… You’ve never been late for practice.”
He’s facing the window. He so funny sometimes.
“Marcus tell him or I will.”
Hmm… this is interesting. Stopping the car in a shopping center parking lot. Out of the car. Who cares about football, this is too much fun. Sitting on the hood of the car. Angel joins me. Angel loves Marcus. He follows him around like a little puppy. Angel reminds me of Matl a lot. Makes it difficult for me sometimes when I see Angel and I think of Matl. It’s weird. But she and Angel are very close. So, I guess it’s normal that he reminds me so much of her. I feel Angel is about to tell me what happened. Marcus…
“Let’s go! I don’t want to be late!”
“Oh… you don’t want to be late huh? Then you have to talk.”
“What the fuck do you care?”
“Oh… I really don’t care. I just look forward to being entertained a little.”
I love teasing the guy! He gets on my nerves sometimes when he acts like this. Seriously though, what happened? He looks really upset.
“Mom walked in–”
He shouts at him like an animal. He’s chasing him now around the car. Hilarious. Angel is shouting out what happened. Alex walked in on him while he was masturbating. But that’s not the reason why he got in trouble. He was recording the whole event on the web cam. Laugh out loud ridiculous. The Scott kids are all banned from using technology other than for school. This is too weird. Why on earth would he do that? And doesn’t he know to lock the door if you’re going to be doing such things. He’s caught Angel. Shit!
“Marcus! Stop! It’s Angel! Beat me up if you want! Leave him alone! Jesus!”
Angel is red in the face from all the punches. Why didn’t he punch back? I manage to pull Marcus off and he starts to cry. Damn it! I didn’t mean to upset him. I just wanted him to get whatever he’s going through out of his system.
“You okay Angel?” Angel nods wiping a bit of blood from his lip and looking at his big brother in shock.
“I guess… Marcus why did you hit me like that! It hurt!”
“Angel get in the car. Let me talk to Marcus.”
What the fuck is up with this guy. Is he that upset about me and Matl?
“Shit Marcus! Talk to me!”
Damn… he is really crying.
“Why? Why should I, if you don’t really care!”
This is so bizarre. Too intense for early in the morning.
“Marcus I care. Just talk to me. Tell me what’s going on! Are you selling porn over the internet? What?”
“Oh you… you think you’re so perfect. Everything always works out for you! You skip school and the teachers don’t even bat an eye about it! Nothing is difficult for you! You can do whatever you want and – “
“Wait a second… Marcus are you envious or something? Because honestly brother you have nothing to be envious ab– “
“I’m not your brother!”
“Okay… okay. Marcus what did I do to you? Obviously, this is about me. What did I do to you and what can I do to remedy it?”
He’s wiping his tears. I love the guy but honestly, he has been behaving very oddly lately and I don’t understand why.
“Let’s go okay. I’m fine. I’m grounded till kingdom come but I’m fine. Just forget everything I said. Let’s go!”
I am so confused but I oblige the poor guy. I’ll talk to him at lunch. God! I don’t know if I can handle his dramatic interludes. This is nuts. The silence in the car the rest of the way is deafening. I feel bad for Angel. I hope he doesn’t end up with a black eye.
“My life is hell.”
Marcus utters it almost as if he wanted me to hear him but sort of under his breath like a secret.
“Marcus… you can talk to me. I’m here for you.”
“Whatever! Nobody can help me!”
He walks out of the car slamming the door behind him. I look at Angel through the rear-view mirror. He shrugs his shoulders. His face is all red still.
“Angel… what else is going on at home? Is everything okay?”
“As far as I know. I had no idea he was this angry.”
Angry. Sounds about right. That is the right word. Angry at me. I have to say I don’t remember doing anything to him other than refuse to help him during his presentation. I’m still not going to do it. He’s smarter than he lets on and he is more capable than he is willing to try. He hasn’t applied to any colleges and I don’t really think he wants to go to college. I know Alex and Donovan don’t care if he goes or not as long as he doesn’t waste his life. No pressure. So what has him so worked up? The thing with the picture with Matl’s face on it? I remember he went psycho in the locker room. He was super strong and I couldn’t breathe. He had me deadlocked so strongly against the wall. I wonder if he would feel better once he beats me up. I’m going to make sure he does. I’ll push his buttons until he breaks. He has to tell me what’s going on.
Chapter 4 – Joseph – Some Kind of Heaven, MATL Book 1 – Part 1
© 2017 Mel Gutiér
For the song… Things are getting a little out of hand for me with music. I can get so addicted to one song for a long while. I don’t want to repeat any songs for the days though. Hmmm… This song is featured at the end of Joseph’s chapter. It is a lingering thought about how Joseph feels about Matl. I also wanted to soothe the reader as his chapter ends very intensely. He needs his Matl.
Sorry this was late… Sleep has been beating me up come 9PM. I need to listen or I’m going to end up all bruised up. LOL.
Thank you so much for sticking around with me through these days. I’m so touched by some of you repeatedly making your way back. Love you all so much!