Something you said made me think out loud. I wasn’t there but my head was. I don’t remember exactly your point but… you said, “Thank you.” I was like “What did I do?” You laughed and continued your talk. I had no idea what you meant really. I didn’t do anything. I just… I didn’t do anything.
You made fun of me. We laughed. I had no idea what you meant. I was tired from my day. You held my hand without taking it. I knew you were special, just didn’t know, how special you made me feel until after you left. You lingered. I suppose I’m grateful for that. I’m grateful for you. You’re still here holding my hand without taking it.
But… I wanted to know why you said thank you to me. What did I do for you? You might still be here making fun of me. You might still be here laughing with me. I suppose you’re right though. Have to hold on to what we have. Have to be grateful for it. Even if it isn’t perfect, even if when you look around, you might feel like you don’t fit in. Grateful. I should be grateful. This jolt as soft as it is… makes me miss you so much.
Whispering “I love you” into a butterfly hoping it reaches you. I’m grateful for you as you live in my heart always… memories selfishly capture you intensely in my life.
Heart is strong in this.
Thank you for the time.
Want to say I love you.
Want to say you made my day.
Mother your support means a lot.
Sister you need a shoulder… here I am.
Family needs a hug… here I am.
Daughter needs a smile… here I am.
Friend needs to laugh… here I go.
Cousin you are lost… find me here.
Nephew you need guidance… no problem.
Niece… you’re not well. Hugs!
Baby… come cuddle with Mommy.
Husband needs a friend… I am here friend.
Crying needs a tissue. Here you go.
Fantasy needs reality. Well… let me think about that.
Dreams need fulfillment. Passionately swimming there.
Drugs… I don’t do drugs. I do music though.
Head needs time. I ain’t got no time missy!
Rush needs calm. Okay… jolt!
Lonely needs you… needing… you.
Dancing… only… with you.
Grateful… yes… grateful… for you.
I… AM… SO… GRATEFUL… FOR… ALL… OF… YOU!
© 2017 Mel Gutiér
After your mind tangents you into crazy rambles, you need a pick me up for the day. Many years ago, (I’m a little up in age. LOL.) I came a cross this amazing German named Henrik Twardzik. What a great name! Right? In the music world he goes by Neelix. I like that name too. When I heard his remix poetry, way back when, the effect of it was like this soothing softness that packed a shooting jolt and made me tingle all over. He always packages something unique in the mix. Whether it be vocalizations or the electric guitar, my personal favorite, he kills it! I’m completely blown away by his creativity and his ability to change the course of my thoughts in one second. I find his jolts extremely satisfying and inspirational. Grateful for that!
Love the whole thing but my favorite in this begins at 3:46. Crazy!
Thanks so much for reading and for listening.