100 DoRaM: Day 83 – Sleepy times and…

I can’t remember when I started having trouble with sleep. I mean… I can’t. It has become a nightmare and a blessing. Blessing… this is not. Trying to externalize the internal and it’s not happening. I’m… no. What heck is this? What blowing hiss! This forking lack of sleep in the middle of sleep. See that? I’m not cursing anymore. LOL. Anyway… this business of sleepy time without the sleep? Sure. It’s quiet now. There is no one needing me, no eyes looking at me to… What? Why you staring at me like that! Anyway… this road is long and sometimes very weakening, this lack of sleep. But do I really need it? I seem to do okay without some sleep now and a day. Okay isn’t good, is it? I’m not even going to worry about how this thing I’m writing sounds. I never do.  LOL.  I mean these days… what’s with the days. I think I’ve skipped some. I know I have. You know I have, unless… ah! Fork it! Spoon it even! Spork full of sugar makes the medicine go down… the wrong way. Ah that Mary Poppins. Don’t you just love that Mary! Breathe sigh. You know the first time I saw her, I wanted to be her. She was magical and it didn’t look like she needed any sleep. I mean… always peppy and full of herself and dreamy. Oh… actually, that WAS Julie Andrews. I love Julie Andrews. The sound of her music… glorious. I loved that Cinderella story line. So much enchanting, that. That what? Nothing… just that. Another favorite one was when she went and fell in love in Victor Victoria. That was great fun to watch. I love Julie Andrews. What the fork is happening here? The lack sleepy I feel stems from two things. Love and poetry. The love I feel exploding in me and the poetry that is my life right now. (*wink*) Sweet! I know. My girls make me happy. I love their smiles and sleepy eyes in the morning. I love watching them try to wake up for school. It’s like… fairyland and all the possibilities of a dream come true. It’s embedded in them. Breathe sigh this!  Why don’t you! I’ve fallen, and I can’t get falled.

So what do you say to that! Nothin… you need to get more sleep yo! Trying! You don’t think I’m trying?

Fork you and that and everything else!! You’re nuts if you think you can fool me into this. I know what you are! I’m sleepy y’all but I can’t sleep. I wake up refreshed in the middle of my sleep. Forking sleep!!!!!!

Ah!  Fork it! Sleep is for mere mortals. Those mortals that can’t handle incoherent thoughts that just make it to impossible this. Oh… Hi!

“Hi Mel.”

“Charlie! It’s so good to see you!”

“Good to see you too sexy. Umm… why don’t you stand up and come with me.”

“What are you wearing?”

“Umm… nothing. You’re dreaming me up this way so… meh… I went with it even though I rejected you and wore these jeans.  I like this power I have to overwrite you.”

“You look good… in jeans.”

“Yeah… you’re drunk.”

“I don’t drink.”

“You’re drunk with sleep.”

“Oh… you’re good.”

(He’s so cute. He makes me all dreamy like molasses and… oh my!)

“Sorry girl. Ugh… you’re kind of heavy. Molasses? Cute. Have to get you to bed where you belong.”

“You’re so strong?”

“Ha! You’re funny. You’re asking me?”

“You’re carrying me.”

“Yep… what is going on here? Where’s your bed?”

“That one.”

“Oh… right.”

“You love me Charlie?”

“Yeah. I love you a lot girl.”

“What about Rachel?”

“Umm… stuff is happening that you’re writing. But you’re my one true love.”

“Oh… I’m writing it?”

“Shush… you’re very tired. I can tell. I had to come tuck you in.”

(Breathe sigh and all the wonderful dreams. He’s perfect.)

“Well… you make me perfect in every way. Wait! Damn! I’m Mary Poppins!”

(*giggles*)

“Yes… that’s why you don’t exist but only in my dreams.”

“Wow… that kind of hurt because… never mind. Sleep Mel.”

(I’m fading… he’s fading… Charlie…)

“I’m here. Sleep. I’ll always be here.”

© 2017 Mel Gutiér

Breathe sigh this song!  (*wink*)

Love y’all!

Thank you so much for reading and for listening.

 

 

47 thoughts on “100 DoRaM: Day 83 – Sleepy times and…

  1. Pingback: 100 DoRaM: Day 53 – The Charlie – Fiction in My Head

  2. Watching a child wake up is the best… It’s like you don’t even know how great your day is going to be… because you are only a child and everything is amazing…. This box, this movie, these new words… all wonderful…

    Sleepy Mel is pretty wild… haha… or is it Miss Poppins?… love how deep you went into this… your openness is inspiring… A delusion broken up by thought…

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  3. So…sleep…not getting any… it sucks! I have trouble sleeping, too. I have trouble falling to sleep. I’ve found that the more I try to will myself to sleep, the more I am awake. If I try to force myself to stay awake, then I get sleepy. Stupid contrarian brain/body of mine! So now I just stay up. I stay up and up and finally fall asleep and sleep like the dead. I wonder if your brain is a contrarian like mine. Plan a night where you can afford to sleep late and try to deny yourself sleep. “Nope, not going to sleep, not even a little bit. No nap for me! No siree! I’m going to stay up forever! I”m going to …zzzzz” I hope it works!

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    1. You’re so sweet. My lack of sleep originated a long time ago. It’s me time. Over the last month or so… I have been very tired and sleepy right away around 9pm. Problem… I wake around 2am most nights and can’t go back to sleep. 😕 that’s where I am right now. Working on it.❤

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  4. I love it when you’re sleepy Mel, and good to see Charlie is looking after you, he must really think a lot of you, he’s not even thinking of Rachel. Nite nite sleep well, and beautiful dreams. Scom xx

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