Hello my lovelies. I’ve been thinking about starting something new on the blog for days now. This post had been cued up and waiting for me to hit publish for a while. I thought about this just because it seems to help me deal with… stuff. I guess… I’m really doing it for myself but if it helps someone at least a little… good. (Also keeps me writing.)
This particular post was meant to reach someone specifically (you know who you are). Now reading it again. It bites a little and might reach others. It was part of my 100 way back to what seems a lifetime ago. Re-posting it to start this Reverberation theme. I’m just trying this out. They’ll be out randomly as I see fit. I’m the boss here, right? LOL. Okay no more LOLs… I’m serious. I never used to talk to anyone and now it seems that I do, can… didn’t know I could. It helps. I suppose. So… here be the first Reverberation. (I may or may not add music to these. Depends. But it will always end with hugs. 😉 )
I’ve got heartache on the brain. I’m going to attack it with vicious attitude. I’m losing my mind with the idea! How? How can you do that to someone? How can you finish, abuse, eradicate a heart so loving so wanting of affection? It baffles me! I’m not perfect and I’ve done my share of hurting and vise-versa but I know what love is. Its sacrifice, work and effort and it should not be one sided. But when it is, what is left for us to do? What? Trying to wrap my head around it. Can’t. I can’t because my situation is not that.
I’m happy and everything is fine with me, not perfect, but good, solid, loving. I don’t pretend to know what it’s like to have a severely broken heart but I understand how it can happen. I’ve seen it.
I’m in tears imagining a little heart torn in half, torn in all directions, lost. I want to reach that heart and let them know, they can be found again. They can. Fork everyone! Rise above it! Become something stronger, better, wiser, more loving still! Burst out with love for everyone. Smile. Change course, try something you’ve never done before, derail. See what happens. Go for it. Can’t get any worse. Wake the hell up of the one that is hurting you. Have them take a closer look at you, your courage, your audacity. Screw it! You only have one life! Live it with love and kick the ass that has you beaten down in the balls! Do it! What have you got to lose. You’ve already lost yourself. Can’t get any worse.
I wish I had the power to unleash a force to save everyone who is suffering right now. Love is so powerful that the hurt from it cuts you up. The scars are deep, I get it. There isn’t an antiseptic strong enough to heal it but there is time. There is effort, not giving up, not surrendering, fighting. It can be done. We still go to sleep at night. We wake up in the morning and we do all these things we have to do. So… what does that mean? We’re capable, strong, resilient… elastic!
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