Last night, I lay in bed as still as possible. I wanted to see if I could hear my own heartbeat. I wanted to see if there was anything left in there to make me come alive again. The ache was unbearable, and I cried myself to sleep. Still… I heard something. It scared me. Alive again? Is that even possible? It certainly doesn’t feel that way right now. My body had other ideas. I woke up in the middle of the night drenched in the thought of you. In the dark there were colors I had never noticed before. They were all in the hue of you. Your smile, your hands on me. Your eyes noticing the dark in my soul and kissing it back to light. It was colorful bliss, souvenirs that used to decorate my life in real time. Souvenirs. You had me so well wrapped up in you, I didn’t notice me. Where did I go? Tears. I didn’t really care. I enjoyed being there, wrapped up in the warmth you bathed me with. Feeling your breath on my neck was a feast of pleasure. I remember the goose bumps from it. I’m shivering now, curled up in you… still. I can’t help it. Your absence has such a strong hold on me. My body cuddles in search of you. The cozy here feels… empty. Soothe me… make me yours again. Help me sleep again, dream again… rest. My problem is that my body remembers your touch and my soul is confused by your absence. It has been driven to madness, gone insane with void. Now there is… this song in my head, you… the lyrics, your kisses on me. You were always my favorite lullaby.
© 2018 Mel Gutiér
Loved it! 🙂
You’ve made every forlorn feeling palpable through your words.
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Thank you kindly. Grateful for your visit.
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Pain fused with an aching love. This may well be fiction but your art imitates my life. Brilliant~
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Well this is one of the best comments ever! Thank you so much. This is the second post of its kind. Fancy reading the first one? It’s called Entry into the diary of a broken heart. LOL!
https://fictioninmyhead.com/2018/06/09/an-entry-in-the-diary-of-a-broken-heart/
Do let me know what you think. It is going to be a regular on here. Thank you for the encouragement.
Hugs Lexicon Lover! Welcome to my head! You’re now a lovely! Muuaah!
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I’ll be avidly reading your blog now that I’ve found it!! 😊
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You are very kind! I hope to make it worth your while!
Muuaah!
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xo
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I’m editing my novel right now but I’m slowly coming back to posting regularly. ,😀
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Nice!
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Do you have twitter? I would love to follow you. I’m at @gutierfiction
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beautiful… heart breaking… amazing…
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Hey you! How are you?
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Doing okay… Dialed it back on WordPress to try and do more submissions… Been lazy instead… Haha… How have you been?…
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Busy with life… I’m far behind on all projects but I’m not sweating it.
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Busy with life can be good… You shouldn’t sweat it.. in the same boat as well… Sailing until it all gets done…
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🙌
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In the velvet dark only the stars find the real you
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This is wonderful! Thank you. I love your words.
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Awesome! “My body remembers your touch and my soul is confused by your absence.” This is powerful.
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Wow! Thank you so much for your wonderful words! Muuaah!
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Anytime!
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In the dark there were colors I had never noticed before. They were all in the hue of you. …
Beautiful! 🙂 🙂 💕
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That means a lot coming from you! Thank you! Hope you are enjoying your summer!
Muuaah!
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I am!! 😄😄
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Oh goodness – beautiful writing, hope it’s fiction ? It’s so real the way yuh write I never know if it’s really you
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No worries. It is fiction. Check tags. She has a name and back story and everything. All will be revealed as time goes by. This is her second entry. 😉
Hugs! Thanks so much for your visit.
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💕🤗☀️🤗💕
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Hi Mel… https://ivors20.wordpress.com/2018/08/02/im-back/
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